The main reason I started blogging (besides my husband encouraging me to do so) was so I could learn to always look for and find joy in the journey of life, rather than just dreading getting older. I think I have done pretty well, except the past few months I have had a few weepy moments when I would think about aging. I even caught myself thinking the other day how I wish I would wake up one morning ten years younger than the age I am going to be.
But then I started thinking of all the blessings I have received in my life the past ten years that I would not currently have—and might not ever have, if my wish were granted.
So . . . if I were ten years younger . . .
1. All my children would still be at home, but I also would not have a son-in-law, a daughter-in-law and a sweet little grandbaby—all of which bring me great joy.
2. With a the exception of family members and neighbors , most of the people I consider important in my life right now, have come into my life in the past ten years.
3. I would have missed out on nine years of being involved in the seminary program and all the associations I have made through seminary, as well as everything I have learned by studying the scriptures during that same time.
4. I would have yet to be a mother of a missionary.
5. I would not have the wonderful friendships I now enjoy with my adult aged children.
6. I would not have traveled to the Orient, Australia, Eastern Europe, Israel, Guatemala, the Mediterranean and Costa Rica.
7. I would still never know how very much fun mountain biking in Moab, Utah can be, what it is like to swim at the Great Barrier Reef, or rappel down waterfalls. And considering the current economy and the lack of construction in Phoenix (my husband’s source of employment) it is very unlikely we would have had the opportunity to do all those things in the next ten years.
8. I would have not yet gone back to school and therefore still would not have the appreciation I do for art, philosophy, biology, geography and literature.
9. I would have less patience, less charity, less compassion and be less forgiving of others.
10. I would be harder on myself, more worried about what others think, and more afraid to let others know who I really am.
And so for those reasons, and many more, I am grateful I am not ten years younger, since the past ten years have brought rich experiences, meaningful relationships and oh, so much . . . joy to my journey!
But now I am wondering . . . what fun adventures, challenges and blessings will the next ten bring??